Ok, so here is my first official blog entry! Holy cow what a huge amount of pressure to say something ground-breaking! Already I have used 2 exclamation points and I have only just begun. My friends Amanda and Jennille have already traversed this scary road (see blogs I have to check at least twice a day) and that should give me courage, but it doesn't. It kinda makes me sweat, and not the good Nike commercial sport sweat. It's the sticky, nasty, smelly kind of sweat. Right now you might be asking yourself, "why then would she put her crazy thoughts in Georgia font for others to see?" The answer is, because I want to know how I like my eggs. I know, just try to stay with me here. It might get a little dicey for a minute. I promise I have a point.Jeff and I missed small group this week because the kids and I were visiting my grandma in St. Louis. When I asked my friend what I missed, she said our group had pondered one of the great theological questions of the ages. "What movie do you most relate to and why" If you are looking for the scripture it might be in
um... one of the gospels maybe... Anyway when she told me her movie, Runaway Bride I'll admit I was puzzled but tried to look thoughtful. I have seen the movie before but it was ages ago and considering the title, I was hard pressed to believe she could really relate to a runaway bride. She explained that throughout the movie Julia Roberts' character takes on the likes and dislikes of her fiance of the moment, including the unique way he likes his eggs cooked. Anyway towards the end of the movie, she cooks plates of eggs to determine how SHE likes her eggs prepared. To make a short story long, she realizes she can't truly love someone else until she knows herself.
You might be wondering what this story has to do with me and my blog. Well it all comes down to getting to know myself better; for instance, my likes and dislikes. I have never felt truly comfortable with the person I am. I am always waiting for the "perfect" moment to present itself before I start to appreciate the person I have become. The Bible says that we are "fearfully and wonderfully made". I think it dishonors God when I am unhappy with what he created me to be. So I am hoping that through this blog, He will show me what he sees in me and what he wants me to see in myself.